salvation is here.

6 days left

2005-12-11T10:28:43Z

i had such a great time on friday. lhamo's party. she would be a great ra. well i'm on my way home to hanoi on saturday. i miss that place so much. i hope time goes slowly so have time to do stuff and see everyone!

thanks prem for the photos...

pangshoonair @ 2005-11-18T21:45:00

2005-11-18T10:48:00Z

i have come to understand that i hate flies. anybody who ever thinks of going to melbourne. beware of the flies! that's all i have to say

pangshoonair @ 2005-11-06T16:10:00

2005-11-06T05:14:49Z

visualise what you are looking at. you may see something no one else notices.

Blackbird

2005-10-28T22:47:52Z

Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these broken wings and learn to fly

All your life, You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these sunken eyes and learn to see

All you life, you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly, into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly, into the light of the dark black night, you were only waiting for this moment to arise

You were only waiting for this moment to arise

autumn falls on you

2005-10-22T07:15:46Z

i know i havent updated in soooo long. but i dont know, i think i kinda lost the touch and feel for it. but now that im on my way into university, i guess its a good time to write something. well the last week has been kinda fun. been meeting interesting people and getting to know melbourne. i felt insecure leaving my family behind but i guess im becoming more independent everyday, though i havent started to cook real meals yet! but that will come. right now its raining. for the first time since i got here. its been beautiful and it smells sooo good. the campus is big and great. its got all i need. a place for shopping eating, playing sports and just hanging around. on monday i start my classes and it seems pretty intense. i still dont have my timetable, but i know there is a lot of drawing involved. i seriously have to improve in that aspect. well, coming here is an experience. ive been into town a couple of times and seen places and it looks quite european. and then i gotta get used to all the new sports here. you've got australian rules football and cricket(i know its worldwide but i dont know much about it). but then youve also got soccer and tennis and basketball so thats fine. i hope its all gonna be fun.

oh today though, i had the most unlucky day, which turned out ok anyways. i was gonna go into town and just look around. so i take the bus to clayton station. oh and i find out they are doing work on the rail so no trains there. then i go back to monash and onto the next bus which will take me to huntingdale station. oh and there i find the station is also closed and i go back to take the bus back to the uni to get on yet another bus. the good thing was i had a monthly ticket so i could travel as much as i wanted, but still. however, when waiting for the bus, people start running towards another bus and so i join in and suddenly i find myself by a train station. yay!! so then i went into town. walked around. didnt spend much money since im almost broke for this weekend cos i cant get to any banks. so ya. my day for you.

pangshoonair @ 2005-09-10T21:54:00

2005-09-11T15:06:05Z

This weekend started out really good but I get so damn lazy all the time... I should do so much stuff now that I have so little time left here. I've decided to write everything down on a list. i think i did it last year (i wonder where that paper went). Well, back to this weekend. Went to dinner with shamal and then "crashed" bao's birthday party at bobby's. We couldnt really crash it cos it was already over and people were just showing up to hang out. the couches there are so comfortable so you just wanna fall asleep. so i didnt decide to go to new century. never been there, never will be there probably. you gotta pay 80 thou to get in, then music is too loud and too crappy. (maybe i'm just biased, i've never been there so i wouldnt know) but many other people like to go there. so maybe im just prejudging. well at bobby's it was only me shamal yuuki hide matthew and mundy left when everybody went walking on their way to new century (with a few stops at funky i think). well hide's got the weirdest pants, i should have taken a photo of them but they were weird. cant really describe them. and then they were forcing me to make jokes. im not the most spontaneous person in the room and i dont really have the ability to just think of something funny, i usually just listen to other people's comments. well didnt really work, but they laughed anyways. my night ended at 10:30 cos i had to go home and watch my little sis and brother. but it was fun while it lasted. and then saturday i just sat in front of the tv the whole time. i felt so bad and sick. i love sweden cos there it isnt too hot to just walk outside. thats what i am longing for and i hope to find it in melbourne, where i've almost got a room. other than that we went past the only beatles cafe i've seen in hanoi. didnt have time to stop but it looked all right. though it was on one of the smaller roads somewhere where i dont know so i dont think i'll ever find it again. but hey i saw it!
hide is leaving tomorrow and shamal on friday. i hope they have fun in uni. i still have to wait another month i think. im gonna be so sick of just hanging around at home. but then again i'll probably miss my family a great deal.

I'm happy

2005-09-03T17:09:15Z

Sweden won against Bulgaria! 3-0!

I'm happy.

Edit: And they beat Hungary too...

I'll fall if I have to, but I will take the step.

2005-08-21T04:58:01Z

Person 10: Hi, so you're the one going to Australia? (points at my sister Andrea)

Andrea: Oh no, that's her (points at me)

Person 10: So you're the one going there?

Ebba: Yes I am (not that frustrated but just tired of repeating the same information ten times)

Person 10: Oh, so what are you planning on studying?

Ebba: Art and Design studies

Person 10: So what does that mean?

Ebba: Well it is a basic course covering all the core subjects for art and design (kind of unsure because I haven't studied the semester plans for the course yet)

Person 10: Sounds interesting! But why Australia?

Ebba: Adventure, whole new place and I've got friends there. And no one can talk me out of it, not even you grandma.

This is what I've been repeating all throughout the summer. It's not that it's bothering me but so many more people have been speaking to me. Maybe they think I'm grown up enough to talk to them.

the end of the summer is near.. and its raining

2005-07-25T14:35:39Z

well, here are some photos from sweden.. my xanga didnt load properly so im trying it here.. im having a great time so far.

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dream away...

2005-06-12T07:45:06Z

im back from our senior trip to hoi an... such a great time!! got pictures but have no idea how to post them here so... i'll just write instead.

taking the train wasnt too bad.. though on the way back we had to sit in uncomfortable chairs for 14 hrs... my back hurt soo much after that. but atleast we got on the train.
hoi an was beautiful and it didnt rain as much as we thought, since its kinda the wet season in vietnam. well the first day we rented motorbikes and spent the afternoon at the beach. i was soo tired that night but the chocolate mousse at tam tam cafe was gooood. i think some people agree with me. spending the night till 1am at the beach watching the stars was fun. just talking and listening.
the next day we went shopping. it takes some energy to get up at 830 to go shopping in the hot weather. well it was fun. got some stuff made. and ate some strange dish in the market. it wasnt bun cha and it wasnt pho bo. but it was good. then we went back to later drive down to the beach. played frisbee. actually got the hang on how to throw it. the waves were quite big. we all decided to make a bonfire that night but we had no idea where to get all the wood. we eventually got it by playing a game of volleyball against some vietnamese hospital guys. such a long time since i last played.
the bonfire was great! even though it was really hot and smoky. we just spent a few hours sitting around the fire just thinking. but around 2 pm people were getting tired so we drove them home... and also to change. cos pants covered with sand on the inside isnt the most comfortable clothing. back on the beach again i burnt myself on calebs bike and now i have this huge motorbike tattoo on my leg. well atleast i have a memory of this trip. at least i didnt fall like caleb and yoo mee. thankfully they didnt hurt themselves too much. back on the beach it was only me junna christine bj daniel bram and caleb left. after another hour or so the guys decided that it would be fun to scare all the girls and so they decided to hide out in the dark and jump out of nowhere. well we were trying to chase them down but it didnt really work. at 3:30 it was time to go back. at least for me. i need my sleep.
back at the hotel i went straight to bed while the others jumped in the pool. then once again they decided to wake up everyone at 5:30 saying it was time for breakfast. good thing i didnt remember i was woken up. apparently i had the weirdest reaction and i gave everyone the meanest look ever. i do not remember that at all!! im sorry to all of you who thought it was fun to wake us up. maybe next time you'll think before actually waking me up 2 hours after ive gone to sleep. i didnt mean to give you such an angry look. but i guess you guys kinda deserve it :P. well i slept till noon almost. had no breakfast and went into town. spent most of the time at the hotel trying to recover from the day before. it started raining so no beach that day. found out that we had to leave on friday cos we couldnt get any other seats to hanoi the following day.
the last night in hoi an we went to some restaurant which i dont remember the name of. the off to tam tam again for desserts and ending up in the boys room where we played cards and the clapping game. kinda fun but we needed the sleep to get up the next morning for our train ride.
train ride home was uncomfortable but i actually slept a lot. im happy im home now. still recovering from sthe few days of holiday. not really relaxing in many ways but ways fun. slept till 3pm the next day. never slept that long in my life. now we are all tanned and happy. and on thursday grad is on. great to know that we are all soon free of school. and in two weeks we are off to bangkok and sweden. i am sooo bored of the weather here. i need to be in sweden.
i need to go to sleep again.

ooh, and everyone should try sugar cane juice just for the fun of it.
the holiday soundtrack: OMC - How Bizarre

i cant wait.

2005-06-06T06:43:31Z

yay to all swedes out there.. its our national day today.. and i'll be on a train to hoi an with the rest of our class to celebrate the end of 2 years of school.

this week has been pretty unspectacular... didnt do much.. though i did intern at sacidelta to try out how it is to be an architect. hmm.. i wonder if it something for me but it was interesting getting to draw living rooms and painting houses. though i find it a bit too structural.. but maybe everything is structural. i guess you need those 4 years of studying to really become an architect. my boss told me its an old man's job cos you go through your whole life improving and gaining knowledge about what pleases the human eye. ya and you need your physics and maths. i have the physics, not the maths. so i guess i'll choose another career. but its a while till then.

apart from a week of waking up at 6:30 and coming home at 5pm... i didnt do much else. too tired and too lazy. this office-working business is seriously draining me of my energy. we did play the b-boys in soccer... got beaten 3-0 like last time. i would defend myself and the team but i cant be bothered. just happy we beat them once. ooh.. and its not like getting beaten 6-0 when sweden beat malta. i cant wait for the world cup in germany. its not like i can go but i like watching the national team play.. you get so patriotic.

my parents' birthdays were this week so we got to celebrate it yesterday. food was excellent. i just gotta find them something. other than that, aiko and christine's sister's birthdays came up this weekend. decided to go out on saturday to fifty fifty.. no dance floor and no hip hop. thats not how its supposed to be like. so i went home. friday was fun. ate the 'in between' dessert at cyclo bar. positively better than at al fresco's. and i'm wondering if its true that guys eat because they like eating and not because they like the food. im not trying to be stereotypical here, but 3 out of 3 guys at the table said that the other night. but i know there are always exceptions.

hoi an is gonna be great! getting away from hanoi, school, family. just hanging out with friends. tanning, against the guys' objections. and after that its only 2 weeks left till we go to sweden. i cant wait. im getting kinda sick of the hot weather and the humidity. gotta get back to the most peaceful place on earth. and meet all the people i havent seen for a year!

i cant wait.

Dare to take the moment

2005-05-31T11:25:21Z

as iamapple said, the afterprom was great. you had the right amount to drink so you still had control over your body and you didnt start puking after 30min... it sucked for christine and junna. i think that last vodka shot was far too much. especially for them. but it was fun up till that time. seriously, after prom was great! the whole day was fun! first i tried to wake up late, didnt work cos we had to go to HIS and blow balloons and go to hilton to put up all the decorations. they came together very nicely and i hope everybody got into the mood. got ready with junna, took photos with our dates, then off to prom dinner where the desserts and the salmon were delicious. the prom itself was fun. the dj was good, i guess he was worth the money. though he decided to replay the songs we seemed to dance the most to. photo booth was great. and then home and off to after prom. the first few hours were fun and jumpy but as people started pouring drinks into themselves, it all slowed down and stopped around 3 or 4. i thought it would go on for longer than that, but people seemed to drink too much too fast to keep themselves awake throughout the night. the highlands coffee didnt work cos junna wasnt able to walk. and i was too tired staying awake. we all tried to watch the new star wars but we were all too tired. i didnt get half of what was happening and towards the end i fell asleep. i think daniel was the only one who actually finished the movie. thanks to anna, daniel, bj, va and all the other people that helped bring home jee hyun christine and junna. even though it was close enough to walk, none of them could. well i'll remember this after prom i think. but i wonder if other people will.
hoi an next week is gonna be great. i need to relax!

don't deny the fact

2005-05-27T14:54:49Z

the morning of thursday, may 26th. at 5am the crickets go quiet at once, as if they were watching the sun rise. staying up that night was worth it, even though we were all doubtful of liverpool to even score a goal. that game was amazing, though i missed the most important part i guess.
well it was a fun night. started out by meeting at daniel's place deciding to watch fifth element which did not turn out to be too bad. maybe thats why they say its the best bruce willis movie.
after that we were far too lazy to go out to baracuda bar.. having to find a taxi at 12:30 and getting to the right spot... not having to pay too much. yet thanh came to the rescue and told us the place was great and full of people... and a big flat screen...
so we all decided to go there.. took a while but finally there we were all waiting for the moment when the clock turned 1:45 am...
seriously... watching ac milan scoring in the 53rd second or something just felt ridiculous... but after about 3hrs it had all changed... had a great time out
spent the next day trying to dye my hair but the stylist ruined.. i dont really care cos i got a free hair color so im happy :D...
other than that.. tomorrow is prom.. and after prom..and after prom breakfast.. i hope it will be fun... seriously.. after all the time people have put into this, especially junna...
everything will be great!

it's done.... all of it

2005-05-20T03:58:06Z

it's raining outside...
and im happy.
this is the day that sums up the 12 past years of school...
it is all done.
and someone needs to watch star wars.
time for sleep-in mornings and long days at the pool...
interrupted by some soccer.

the way you dance

2005-05-09T12:57:12Z

I'm off for a week... supposedly studying.. but I seem to have too much time.. Well, I had great fun at soccer training today if anybody's interested. The official basketball team is coming together on friday to crush the MS boys team, and then the MS girls on monday. (crush might be overexaggeration but that's our instinct). I'm feeling as relaxed as I haven't felt in years. This is the best time ever, so far. English, Swedish, Math and Art are over and done.

the way you dance

Reported: Missing.

2005-05-06T09:10:37Z

The other day it was hailing in Vietnam. Hailing. I have no idea where it came from or how it got there, but it was hailing at a temp of 35 degrees. I am missing Sweden. The weather. The cliffs. The water. The boat. My cousins. The feeling you get when you can sleep and it's dead quiet outside. Or when you walk along the coast and feel peaceful and free! This place is the greatest. Nothing to worry about, you can hide away and spend some time alone. Have to go buy a present for Christine and Caleb, so I'll finish this off later.

Last Day of High School..... ever!

2005-04-28T12:26:01Z

Didn't think this day would ever come, but tomorrow is the last actual day of high school and high school classes. This past year has gone by so fast and I can't believe that next week I'll be spending my time in the exam room. But that's then. tomorrow we gotta celebrate the end of an era. Some bubble tea and funky i guess. I have spent 12 years in a classroom.. and i am finally allowed to break free. the rest of my time here is going to be totally out of order. no more schedule (except for exams)... all spontaneous and random. though i do need a dress for prom.. but that will have to wait..
Hey thanks sameer for the layout.. looks great! turned out much better than if i would do it. like the colors. very... interesting. reminds me of a forest or something. dont know why, but its nice!
well.. today was a day of lazy time. we spent all of our classes TRYING to study... the weather was fabolous and we should have spent the day by the pool or on the soccer field (which we did do at 4pm) but we had to be stuck in classrooms where we didnt even know what we had to study.. well i'm happy this all ends tomorrow... though i did have a great time at UNIS... yet it is time to move on.
I read that if you message and use email too much your IQ level can drop by 10%.. which is even worse than weed... that is kinda strange but it could be true.. exercising your brain too much all the time slows down your mentality i guess... but its seems pretty unusual. i guess we'll all be dumb in 20 years..

Drug addicts

2005-03-23T13:51:26Z

for my first entry i wanted to write something interesting.. i wonder if this really is but it kinda hit me...
we had a drug session today with two former cocain addicts... it was pretty interesting to hear their life stories and their fall into the world of drugs.. the interesting thing was that they didnt tell us drugs are bad and they will kill you... they just told us the consequences they had to face when they went from drinking to alcoholics to weed to cocaine... and it seemed really harsh... especially when they talked about the dorms in college.. but i guess a 'no' is a 'no'.. the funny thing... someone defended the drug. i guess its ok in some cases.. but that person didnt seem to have a real picture of how drugs could turn your life around...
well... it was an interesting day and i think it got us all thinking.. the only thing that was bad was her hair.. :p... well all the girls in the class just kinda fixated on her hair at some point... she needs a haircut.. its not as important as rehab but... :P just an irritating thing..
i also got to thinking about how its so hard to make someone stop... i have had problems trying to tell my friends... and it seems like such a difficult thing to do cos you wouldnt really know what to say to them when you found out they were on drugs.. i would just never get into that circle... and spiral down...
well for a somewhat depressing entry... red will be playing black tomorrow night and we need to kick their butts...